My First Meditation

20 Oct

I was 17 when I meditated for the first time

I lit a candle and set it in front of my tv stand. I stared at the flame, until my eyes grew heavy. Then I closed my eyes and saw a stairway straight up a dark hall, there was no end to the where it went, but I was definitely at the bottom.

I knew without words that I would climb until I reached the top. The top was bright. the stairway lightened. I would climb. I would never stop climbing out of darkness.

These days I’m still climbing.

One step at a time, but it will never be that dark again.

I will never feel so far from my body, my truth, my intuition, and those around me.

As I write this Spotify switched to this new song I’ve never heard.

Prayer by Lukis Mac

There are angels supporting us.

There are powerful forces that can divide us or bring us together.

I’m still here, 15 years later climbing one step at a time.

Only now my arms are open.

My dream family is with me.

I am the woman I dreamed of becoming.

This is enough.